Babe I'm gonna leave you - Led Zepellin

A little taste of home, to close the year on a good note!

Happy New 2008 to you all!!!

You matter: Maria, Jozef, Johanna, Danielle, Andrew, Laurent, Becca, Jarl, Carl, Tati, Chris, Arjan, Maíra, Alfie, Daniel, Rubens & Niclas.

Thank you for a wonderful year...

Always in my heart.
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2007

"Life is a circle which ascends,
We pass the same points thousand of times,
Just on different heights..."

Ilhan Irem

So here we face the end of yet another year. Personally, for me, it feels like time flies the older I get. I'm always amazed at how things end up turning out. Life surely does have a way in sneaking up on us..

I tried putting a feeling, 1 word to describe this year, but i failed miserably. 2007 was by far, my most challening, intense, crazy, nerve-bearing, sad, happy, personal, enriching year of my life so far. Horrible, but wonderful at the same time.

The beginning of 2007 carried a lot of hope and happiness for me, but that bubble burst faster than I had expected. I learnt that the more intense a feeling/a relationship is, the faster it will end. Too much of a good thing. An overwhelming experience, with such intensity, it couldn't possibly survive reality. I was truly happy though. Never had been so happy in my life like those 2 months. A big set back. Never experienced such sadness. I believed the rest of the year would have been doomed by that, but thankfully it didn't.

I should thank my lucky stars, because what was about to happen in my life, was more than I had bargained for. By then, I truly understood what "when a door closes, another one opens" came to mean.

By february I had met someone completely unexpected, and it was so damn sweet. It was supposed to be a casual thing, but it turned out to be something that came to mean more to me than I ever had predicted. Unfortunately, during those spring months, in the middle of emotionally charged circumstances, that too, brought too many feelings and complications to the table. I wish I could have been more honest, more open, but I felt limited to do so. Nobody ever limits me, but this time I wasn't able to keep control of the situation..

I found a great couple of people who I have come to love. I could not have gone through with that turbulent period without you guys. You were my angels, even though I didn't take your advice (!!!) We surely built a great gang of people, even though we are very different from eachother. I am truly lucky.

All in all, a great student term in Uppsala. Probably the best one I will ever have. A good thing like that doesn't come knocking on your door twice.

As the term came to it's end, a great sadness began to take over. We knew the Erasmus people who we grew close to, were leaving for good. Our little bubble was about to dissolve.

Our farewell dinner on the roof of our building, watching the sunset, signing t-shirts, just looking at eachother, without the need of words, as tears would roll down my face as I tried to get ready for our very last Värmlands party. That was one great night, but the atmosphere was as cheerful as a funeral's. Or the magical evening then...when we biked home in the soaking rain, back from Snerikes. So many, memories. So many laughs. I was living the mexican soap opera. So many funny incidents. I should write a memoir.

Those last days were the sadest days of 2007. I didn't want to say goodbye. Nobody did.

The upcoming term was to be another challenge. I was a mess. I tried channeling my attention towards studies and work. It wasn't very succesful, although I did pretty well in school and my boss really liked me. But personally, I was empty. I had moved back to Stockholm for 6 months in order to save up on some money. Financially great, emotionally.. not so very.

So many farewells. First Chris, then Laurent...followed by Andrew. I hope we don't lose contact...

Coming August, my sister was about to move back to Brazil. She had met this guy (let's call him Pickle!) who I grew to like a lot, and he sure did pass the little sister approval. Eller hur?!!!! :P

Although I wasnt all that excited about the fact that she was leaving the country in order to be with him, and leave the little sister here, I was very happy for her. I knew how much she "needed" this, and she found it.

My big sister and I always shared a room, never spent any Christmas apart - nor birthdays.
We did everything together, we finished eachother sentences, we knew eachothers thoughts, we laughed at the most lame and ridiculous things. People would call us "naturally drunk". Big sizzle, little sizzle. How would life be without eachother?
By saying farewell to her in August was a very painful situation. Sitting with mom looking at her airplane lift was horrible, just horrible. However I knew she had to take that chance.....and it was absoFUCKINGlutely right of her to take that leap, that leap most people looked down upon.

Being without my sister came to be arduous but enriching. I had to find security in myself alone, find my roll as myself, and not the little sister who leans on her big sister for advice and security.
I'm still learning...but siz, I don't want us to be apart forever, let's not follow the family trend. Life is so lame without you!!! There is so much I want to share with you..Plus, nobody gets my jokes! Only you get them..lama lama duck!
Everyone telling me " this is good for the both of you", but It's so hard...I'm still learning to live without you close. But i still carry you around with me, don't forget that, siz...

Looking back, the first half year was the best part of this year, hands down. The other half was more of a retreating, recharging the batteries, stepping out of that bubble - which was wonderful, but too intense. I guess it couldn't have lasted more than it did. Good things are always short-lived. I would have been a wreck otherwise.


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It's been a bittersweet 2007. Some people whom I've met will never really know how much they mean to me, and how much I really do care for them. I always will. Some, I wish I got to know better, or express my true feelings for. But that's life, isn't it?

1 regreat this year. I learnt my lessons now, maybe too late, but I did. I guess that that does count as something.

I will miss 2007, but 2008 carries new possibilities. The continuation of our lifelong path. The non-stop personal growth and learning, which never ends. I will for sure do absurd things, either immoral, illegal or just plain stupid. But this time, I'll have a stronger armour. I know what I want, and I know who I want to be. I just hope I'll come to find some peace of mind, and another bunch of wonderful people who I can create memories with... But this time, with less drama. Let's see what my year abroad in France will bring..

I'm hopeful and excited about the year to come. I hope you are too.

With love,

gitx

Réveillon

Mes amis...!!!!


Réveillon du Jour de l'An / CARLTON BEACH , Lundi 31 décembre 2007 de 21h A 5h !!
Avec La Maronaise, Philippe CORTI, L'équipe des Nocturnes du Beach Soccer...
2 salles, 2 ambiances, 60 euros avec 1 bouteille de champagne pour 4 personnes.
1 salle année 80 / Disco et 1 salle House.
Renseignements : 0491 727.939. / charles@mk3.fr



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"Passion is a force so potent that it lasts long after it’s gone."

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I+I, I-I
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It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing. It hurts so much. When I feel someone is going to leave me, I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing. One more, one less. When I think that its over, that I'll never see him again like this... well yes, I'll bump into him, we'll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we'll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. Almost. Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drunk up, fool around. Meet one guy, then another, fuck around. Forget the one and only. Then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well. There's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can’t live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else's kisses..


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Brilliant Eddie Izzard!

GEMINI - The Twin

Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good at confusing people... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Gemini's will not take any crap from anyone. Gemini's like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Gemini's can be very sarcastic and childish at times, and are very nosey.
Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

Right on, I must say!!!

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Serre moi - Tryo

Newton Faulkner - Teardrop

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New Years Marseille!!

pour fInir cette belle Année 2007, toute l'equipe des Nocturnes du Beach Soccer et de la Maronaise vous attendent pour un évènement surprise dans un lieu exceptionnel mais pour le moment on vous en dit pas plus...

MK3 BOUGE Marseille pour VOUS !!

M3 REUNION IS ON!

It's official! I am proudly announcing that Andrew and I bought our tickets to Marseille for our New Years vacation. I just had to make a blog post on that one, given the fact that we are all terrible planners.. :)
The reunion is on! We are off to visit Lolo from the 30th of December till the 9th of January in Aix.

Olalaaaaaaa, crazy adventures in France awaits us......

Until then, on wednesday I'm off to England to visit Andrew in crazy uni town of Kent...

XOXO,

gitx

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Proudly presenting...Château Flogsta..OLALA!!

After countless generations of perfecting our wines the Château Flogsta© family has just begun their latest conception of boutique and splendorous wines. The family is proud to assure our beloved friends and students that our latest conception of fine wines is expected to exceed the high quality usually maintained. The climate and environmental bacterial lifeforms in Russell's bathroom has flourished over the summer which has laid the foundation for the upcoming wine production season.

We hope you enjoy the Château Flogsta© wine experience this semester.

With love,
De Lambert, Schmalensee and Stubbs.

Where's the gitx been?!

Ya. I haven't been inspired to blog in a long time. I disappeared for about 3-4 weeks. During that time I must upset you all and let you know that nothing out of the ordinary has happened. Not even a small mexican soap opera to tell you.(not completely true, but it's way too private and complicated for a public blog). I have been working and studying and camping in Uppsala (Flogsta of course) :) & I also went down to southern France for a week. Oh mon Dieu!

I apologize for either being unsocial, idle, weird & so on. Things have been anything but easy.

C'est ca..voyez-vous!!!

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2/3 of the musketeer crew

Good friends are like stars.... You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.

Saudades..

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Siz, I totally miss you.. :(

Siz, i totally miss you
I really fucking miss you
I'm all alone,
All the time, all the time

Siz, i totally miss you
The things we did together
Where have you gone?

Totally miss the honesty
And special times, and honestly
I totally miss the fucked up thing we do

Siz i totally miss you
I totally miss you
Siz, i totally miss you
All the time


Totally miss the honesty
And special times, and honestly
I totally miss the fucked up thing we do

Siz, i totally miss you
I totally miss you
Siz, i totally miss you
All the time

Breaking through life's cataclysms

Earlier today I was reading a friend's blog (http://blog.johanchristherschutz.net/), and came across this one specific post he wrote, which felt so familiar to me & to my own experiences, I wish I had written it myself. At some point in life, you have or will go through this following experience. The post is simple, painful, true & above all, very honest.

Here is a part of it:

"I believe that some things are meant to be. or - when I think about it - actually all things! we learn something from everyone we meet and all the experiences we have. every person leaves a mark in you, may it be tiny or infinitively large. the size of the mark is simply a blueprint of the person's importance to your heart.

But letting other people affect us also means we have to open our hearts for the experience, and for the possibility to change. Many people are afraid of that because opening your heart and letting someone in also means a risk to get hurt. But life is full of people we must meet and part from, some leave us unaffected and others..... change us forever.....


So.... what's the meaning with all this? why do we meet people if they're going anyway? maybe because it's all part of the teaching plan. there's something in it for us to learn. sometimes it takes 10 years before we understand what, then suddenly one day you see it in a different perspective, and ask yourself how you could have missed to see it earlier!"/J.C Schutz

"Because life only gives itself to the one who gives himself. To the one who loved, to the one who cried, to the one who suffered." Vinícius de Moraes

I find this post comforting. It carries hope and a certain easiness for the heart. There is no point in questioning things we can't control nor understand. These experiences are one of life's cataclysms..

As I commonly say : Everything in its right time, everything in its right place... Que será, será. Never fails.


'Nuff said.

New beginnings

During these young adult years, I count my years in university terms. My current reality is made up of homework, lectures, study stress (only realizing it now...), and yes..thinking in matter of "terms".
Every term is a new beginning. For me, this term to come, is one of those big beginnings. Saying goodbye to my past term, which came to mean so much to me. A lot of partying of course, living in a wonderful bubble of friends and good times with the people I met. So important to me....all of you. I am welcoming the new term to come with a half shy smile. I am positive, yet I know somehow that things wont be the same as before.

Everything in its right time, everything in its right place..