Here we go again..

There were many moments in my short life so far where I felt like a little bird locked up in a cage not being able to spread my wings and fly away whenever and wherever I want to and without limitations.

I once read somewhere for which I probably will never forget : "True freedom is only when you realize that the only person who is limiting you is yourself."

We often love to victimize ourselves and complain about the situations we find ourselves in, when in fact, we are quite aware we have put ourselves in that position. Nobody can be that naiv. We know the consequences of our actions.

Shit.

I don't want to say goodbye!

Now i have to face a situation which is all too repeating for me. Sigh..

In certain ways I am old fashioned. I don't like having to give up the things and people that I like. I don't like experiencing things which i know have a best-before-date, because in that way, I can't really enjoy it to its fullest. It isn't natural. It is exactly the same feeling as when a kid is starring into that candy store but can't get in. It's right there, in front of you, yet you can't have it.

But we are human, and we can't help but putting our hearts out there.

Often times we have to be shaped into things we are not, in order to adapt to what we are dealing with. We aren't really entitled to feel anger and bitterness. Such is life. But when it comes to feelings, that is when everything becomes rather complicated.

I can count in one palm how many people who truly moved me, who truly mattered.

"I am here, without a best-before-date, for time unlimited... unknown."